My proudest accomplishment in 2008 was running the first half of the San Francisco marathon. What brought personal meaning to this event was not that I ran 13.1 miles but that for the first time in my life I set a goal and achieved it all by myself. For the first time, I had the discipline to stick to a schedule, to work through my fears, to do something 100% for me.
I've been a runner since I was twelve, but never have I been interested in running long-distance races. Then last November, my friend Leren from the Chicago area asked if I would run the SF half-marathon with her in August. I said "No." Six months later she asked again, and a new motivation came over me. I was ready to push myself and to be a part of something greater than me, so I said "Yes." Beginning in April, I embarked on a four-month training plan that was a journey in and of itself. I learned how to push myself to run faster so that I could run farther. I gained the discipline to cross-train when at the end of a long day all I wanted to do was veg. I experienced the pleasure of physically tired muscles after a ten-mile run, the feeling that I had pushed my body's limits. I could have found a group with whom to train, but in the end I think it was best for me to do this on my own, to realize that I alone had what it takes. That's not to say I didn't have support. My mom, who lives in Texas, was my biggest supporter, and I am thankful for her. She blessed me with homemade inspirational cards, regular motivational emails, and special meaningful gifts. She even increased her routine at the gym as a means of emotional support for me. (What a great mom!)
Race day came on August 3. I was prepared for the struggle of running the last three miles and for the even bigger challenge of waking up in the painful pre-dawn hours. What I wasn't prepared for was how much I would enjoy the race. It was amazing! 13,000 people participated in the two halves and the full marathon. The energy of the other runners and the enthusiasm of the spectators was invigorating. For the first two miles I ran in a sea of people, weaving in and out of the crowd searching for my own space in which to run. Although I had my ipod shuffle (determined that I would need my trusty music to survive the race), I never turned it on. Instead I tuned in to the sole sound of thousands of feet hitting the pavement along San Francisco's embarcadero. No sound of cars, horns, machinery, or general city hubbub...just the sound of feet. It was unreal. During miles 3, 4, and 5 I pulled myself out of runner mode and watched the world around me. I had never seen the areas of Fort Mason, Marina, and Crissy Field, so I soaked up the sights of Alcatraz and the stretch along the Bay. Miles 6–9 were spent crossing and re-crossing the Golden Gate Bridge, which was my favorite part of the race. This is where I really felt the energy of the other runners and where I truly felt like I was accomplishing my goal. The crowd was still thick, and I people-watched while I zigged and zagged around others in an effort to maintain my pace. The breeze was refreshing and cool, the bridge was gigantic and beautiful, and I was bopping along grinning from ear to ear at cameramen spread out along the span. It wasn't until miles 10 and 11 that the crowd opened up and thinned into small pockets of runners. Running through the Presidio was quiet and more of the environment that I'm used to. I enjoyed the dampness of the coastal air and the freshness of the evergreen trees. This section reminded me of the scene in the movie "What Women Want" where Mel Gibson and Helen Hunt's characters create a Nike ad featuring a girl running in the early morning along a deserted mountainous road... just the solidarity of the girl and the pavement. Miles 12 and 13 were uneventful and my least favorite. The energy of the race was waning and I was less familiar with that part of the city, which was mainly forgettable neighborhoods. However, there were still a few spectators cheering us on, and I will be forever grateful to the woman standing along the street encouraging runners by name. She didn't know me from Eve, but when she yelled "Way to go, Rebecca" I immediately regained the spring in my step. The end of the race was surprisingly anti-climatic. I had expected this to be the most rewarding moment–a moment when I lumbered across the finish line thinking "I finally made it." Instead the finish was simple and almost routine. I felt good but was glad to be done and was pleasantly satisfied with my time ( 2 hours, 5 minutes). The joy had existed in the race itself, not the finish. I had truly savored the journey.
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